That Permanent Contradiction
You’re obliged to pretend respect for people and institutions you think absurd. You live attached in a cowardly fashion to moral and social conventions you despise, condemn, and know lack all foundation. It is that permanent contradiction between your ideas and desires and all the dead formalities and vain pretences of your civilization which makes you sad, troubled and unbalanced. In that intolerable conflict you lose all joy of life and all feeling of personality, because at every moment they suppress and restrain and check the free play of your powers. That’s the poisoned and mortal wound of the civilized world.
- The Torture Garden (Octave Mirbeau)
Well I’m so glad I turned down an afternoon with those PUE guys and gals at Gav’s house cooling; I’ve had such an interesting day. I’ve only been out of bed for 15 mins all day and that was to answer the phone and get some breakfast (at 19.30 !!). So, instead of 5 hours of drinking & well, drinking more; I have spent my day in bed playing Crazy Taxi, Championship Manager 00-01 & Project IGI – one word Dave: why?